SPILL THOUGHT

i'm disgusting, no one need me. it is alright if i'm die? it's too hurt, and i'm tired i tried to explain, but no one listening no one. i want to be free, where is my time? is there anyone need me?  like i am something precious, really, i -  want someone beside me.

when i was thinking to ask my friend for a help, it's scary. from what i thought,  they were didn't want me at all,  they see me not clear,  just like i am nothing. because of that, i'm always thinking of my own.  what i can do for myself. look.  on they eyes, it's scarier for god sake.  it's just appearing on my mind that i am nothing.  and that will embrassment me, like :  "what, they were can't, who do you think you are?" it's hurt and sad. why all of people, who i am trust, did that to me?