i am (2)

when i was thinking to ask my friend for a help, it's scary.
from what i thought, 
they were didn't want me at all, 
they see me not clear, 
just like i am nothing.
because of that, i'm always thinking of my own. 
what i can do for myself.
look. 
on they eyes, it's scarier for god sake. 
it's just appearing on my mind that i am nothing. 
and that will embrassment me, like : 

"what, they were can't, who do you think you are?"

it's hurt and sad.
why all of people, who i am trust, did that to me?